seasons and tears

It’s amazing to me, our emotions, and how illogical they can be simply being tied to how tired we are!

I am physically drained today, and it’s a good day overall – nothing exceptional going on…and yet, I feel like I am just two steps ahead of the tears. Why? I could list a myriad of reasons, including just being plain physically tired from a busy season of life. I’m sure some good rest would remedy my emotional state. But I have to laugh. I have received more love this past month than I even know what to do with – every time I turn around, I’m receiving love notes and letters, phone calls, instant messages, surprise gifts, etc. People are just pouring love out on me – I don’t know that it’s moreso than normal (yes, I am richly blessed with friends and loved ones), but I am expressly thankful in a time of my life when I feel as if I am not able to give back. Today, a note from a girlfriend that in part, reads “I miss us…I miss hanging out and being silly…I miss our deep theological conversations…I miss being around you. My life just isn’t complete without you!!!”

And I smile and thank God that above all, when I am weak and tired, I have amazing friends who love me as I am, for who I am, in my weakness, in my strength, in my wisdom, in my folly, in my beauty and in my ugliness…and I know, that when this season ends and I go back to working only one job, I have amazing friends waiting for me with open arms.

My life isn’t complete without you, either, babe.