grin

Those who are regular visitors know I tend to rarely use swear words in written form here…but…in mentioning a song here, I’m going to in this post… ;)
I’m in love with Ben Folds’ song, “The Bitch Went Nuts” and have been listening to it on repeat. *grin* It’s sooooooooo good. It reminds [...]

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rich

I love my friends. ;)
What follows is a ridiculous, ostentatious email a group of my closest friends received tonight from my friend, Phil, an email that demonstrates that I simply serve as comedic relief for them. ;)
Hear ye, Hear ye~
Christy is in dire need of a couple classic action movie experiences. Randy and I [...]

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changes

I remember we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped ’round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
- Tracy Chapman
I love this song.
One of my best friends, the friend about whom this song could have [...]

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calling forth

I cannot imagine life without music.

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congruence

Cleaning, doing bills and catching up on odds and ends…being super productive. Life is wonderful. I love weekends, especially those in which I’m productive but also have good time to rest and hang out with friends. :)
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I write primarily for me, for a record of who I have been and who I am [...]

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oil burning

I love my new/old oil lamp that my momma gave me. :) Brings me much pleasure – one because I love oil lamps with hurricane glasses and two, because it is one I grew up with, so it’s sentimental. :)

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mum

There are so many things I want to blog about from this past year or so but have chosen not to; part of it is a choice of privacy; part of it is just wisdom. But my life is so consumed by my work that it’s really hard not to blog about certain things…but [...]

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grin

Today, I had this exchange which made me laugh:
Me: Twenty-seven years ago I escaped from the womb… (Thanks, Mom, for a great nine-month stay.)
Mom: “You had it so good you didn’t want to see the world. It wasn’t so much of an escape but more of a forced exile. As I remember you weren’t [...]

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sleep

Disconnect.
Keep me compartmentalized
Neatly wrapped up in a bow,
Resting on the dusty recesses of your shelf
Pull out when you desire;
Then shove back when it’s inconvenient.
Blind…dichotomistic…two faces to every man.
Two sides to every story.
Here, there, everywhere.
Your charm can only get you so far.
When does the facade fail?
How long until you wake up
Or is this a permanent sleep?

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pressing on

It’s midnight.
I want somebody to saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaave me. (Seal)
This is character, eh? Persevering when everything in me wants to hide from the world, curl up, and sleep forever? I don’t want to lead a mass of 70 college students this week and train them and such. I just want to get a massage, [...]

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weakness…

I’m sick but it’s 11:13pm and I am still up plugging away at reports that were due a few days ago…not a hard deadline but still…sigh.
Up early to go to campus and still without a voice.
This is the craziest week.
A student when she heard my lack of a voice looked horrified and then said, “Christy, [...]

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one

Just about the time the shadows call
I undress my mind and dare you to follow
Paint a portrait of my mystery
- Sara Bareillis

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healing

Randomly a song by Building 429 came on…it reminds me of Aaron.
I found out recently he is married and has a child.  Our parting and final goodbye (ostensibly), just over a year ago seems like a lifetime and just yesterday.
Hearing songs…so closely associated with another…it’s amazing to me how integrated music is within our lives.  [...]

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prayer

Fill me up; restore me; give me a new voice, a loud voice; one strong and clear, graceful and loving…give me new vision, new hope…a rest found only in you; help me to receive; help me to acknowledge my weakness and lean solely on you; restore in me a new heart, oh God; create in [...]

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appreciation

I have the faintest whisper of a voice left…it’s the strangest feeling…to be without a voice.
I was supposed to train some students tonight; I”m going to have to have two of my student leaders step in for me.  They are more than capable; it doesn’t make sense for me to motion wildly with my hands [...]

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the passing of an age

The hardest thing about moving into this new place is that it is a privately owned, a 1920’s flat…gorgeous in terms of all the wood and construction and design – really quaint and quite lovely with vaulted ceilings and and two balconies – but I cannot paint the walls the deep, dark red I always [...]

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friends

My day just got incredibly bright; one of my close friends whom I haven’t been able to hang out with much on a regular basis just told me she’s bringing me lunch, on her, and coming to hang.
She loves my couches.
I love my couches.
They are old, brown leather, well worn, huge things that just engulf [...]

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sweetest

You are my sweetest downfall…I loved you first. (Regina Spektor)

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new day

I believe in love. (Third Day)

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night turns into day

On my days off, when I can sleep in, I inevitably wake up early.
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I’ve been reading a lot about addictions and how a lot of our childhood experiences play into them – the authors of said books don’t suggest people are not culpable for walking down the paths of their addictions but they look at [...]

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the perils of the job

Working with kids K – 5th grade last week means that I got coughed on, sneezed on, hugged on, etc.
Guess what I’m now entertaining?  A cold.
;)
Oh well. Lots of tea and water and sleep.
I need to go grocery shopping but don’t know that I have the mindset to do it today; perhaps.
It’s going to be [...]

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la de da da

These days fly by so quickly…and we lose an hour tonight.
Cleaning tonight while watching crime shows.
I have so much I want to do but on these weekends off, I just…really become unplugged from the larger world.
I was talking with my younger sister and said I was an introvert.  She said “What? If that’s the case, [...]

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eight years later

I made a promise to my then philosophy professor and now friend eight years ago that I’d watch “Dead Man Walking” upon his recommendation.  I didn’t think it’d take this long to fulfill but I watched it tonight. And of course cried.
Sigh.
I get so wrapped up in films.
It definitely messed with my views [...]

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more

I feel like I’m living for more…but stumbling along the way. And I know that’s the point of it all – a sinner saved by grace and this is the gospel, again, today, for me. One day at a time. Living the journey. Following Jesus. Knowing His love and forgiveness [...]

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the view from my couch

Gray, drizzly day…nestled on the couch with Pandora playing on in the background…coffee mug nearby…waking up to a brand new day…cold troubling my senses…body aches, longing for a good workout but too tired/sick to actually get one in…
Missing friends who have moved out of state.
Bracing myself for some major life changes. Relocating seems the [...]

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processing

I’m home after an intense week away working and living in the Austin community of Chicago; I was able to work with some of the kids involved in one of the after-school programs and they stole a piece of my heart. It was really hard to leave.
Anyway.
Got in around 1:30 a.m. last night; [...]

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