Posted in blood and guts, friends, lessons, life, love, philosophy, relationships on May 7, 2008 | 7 Comments »
Do you give trust freely until it is broken or must one earn trust?
I think the answer has much to do with our cultural backgrounds, personalities and life experiences, but I am pondering this question as well lately.
Posted in blood and guts, friends, lessons, life, love, philosophy, relationships, theology on May 6, 2008 | No Comments »
I’m restless, stirring, ready for more.
Will I ever be satiated?
Is that even the point?
I’ve written thoughts on this stirring before…
It disturbs me to think of always wanting more…
Sweet simplicity.
How to obtain it…
Or is that the point.
It isn’t attainable.
And God is reminding me, reminding us, reminding humanity that only He can satiate us.
And we won’t [...]
Posted in friends, lessons, life, relationships on May 6, 2008 | No Comments »
Half of my staff team is leaving this year (there are four of us, plus our supervisor), including my partner. I’ve known for a year; we broke the news to the students a month ago…watching their tears was rough.
I’m preparing to take over and be the sole staff worker of a 60 plus [...]
Posted in blood and guts, friends, lessons, life, philosophy, relationships on April 19, 2008 | No Comments »
Waking up…
“I look at all the lonely people” (Beatles)
Much to do today; my sister is singing/preforming in a benefit concert today; I hope to be able to attend but much on my to-do list before then.
I have the apartment to myself this weekend.
I miss Becca.
Last night, after work, I met up with Andrea at my [...]
Posted in blood and guts, friends, lessons, life, love, music, philosophy, relationships, theology, verse on April 14, 2008 | 2 Comments »
♫ the human spirit is eternal and frail;
can we accept its bounds?
it’s frightening to offer oneself without walls;
how can we love unless we tear walls down?
(jan krist)
Posted in blood and guts, lessons, life, love, philosophy, relationships, theology on April 12, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Thanks to my beautiful and lovely roommate, Becca, for introducing me to the below quote.
The Authority of Compassion
Mostly we think of people with great authority as higher up, far away, hard to reach. But spiritual authority comes from compassion and emerges from deep inner solidarity with those who are “subject” to authority. [...]
Posted in blood and guts, lessons, life, philosophy, theology on April 6, 2008 | No Comments »
Thankful for friends.
I had a bit of a mini melt-down last night over a small failure professionally…and one friend, in asking me about what was going on, said the following:
You’re smart, intelligent and talented. But even girls like you can’t get it right 100% of the time. By product of being human. [...]
Posted in blood and guts, friends, lessons, life, love, philosophy, relationships on April 4, 2008 | 9 Comments »
A friend posted some thoughts about physical affection and the need for it and the tension we virgins especially face in light of our desperate desire for both intimacy and just pure physical closeness juxtaposed against our commitment to trying to have healthy boundaries with our friends of the opposite sex in light of having [...]
Posted in lessons, life on April 4, 2008 | No Comments »
Sometimes I get so discouraged with who I am as opposed to who I want to be, and facing all I am not gets pretty overwhelming at times. I’m a perfectionist so I’m hard on myself naturally and I’m also a pessimist by nature, which also isn’t that helpful. I really have to [...]
Posted in blood and guts, friends, lessons, life, love, music, philosophy, relationships, theology on April 3, 2008 | No Comments »
What do I really know? I know that mercy will find you.
The question is, will you accept it?
–
“Song of Absolutes” (Jan Krist)
They’re absolutely right
You’re absolutely wrong
And absolutely all their friends
will play along
And they may eat crow
’til the cows come home
And you can absolutely bet
that they won’t eat that crow alone
But what do I know
What [...]
Posted in lessons, life, love, relationships on March 30, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Daughter! Get you an honest man for a husband and keep him honest. No matter whether he is rich, provided he be independent. Regard the honor and moral character of the man, more than all other circumstances. Think of no other greatness than that of the soul, no other riches but [...]
Posted in blood and guts, lessons, life, love, philosophy, relationships, theology on March 27, 2008 | 10 Comments »
my crazy mind, desiring to be rid of this illness, just thought of a alternate reality in which people could offer to go through illnesses for other people, for a price, of course. (i hate being sick! ;) and then…i thought, “who in their right mind would go through sickness as a way [...]
Posted in blood and guts, lessons, life, philosophy, theology on March 27, 2008 | No Comments »
i want to learn the art of simplicity.
i want to learn what it means to effectively carry a heavy load but never be burdened.
to have peace in the midst of the busyness of life.
to be centered, fully.
and consistently.
to run the race of life well.
and to end it well.
i want to hear “well done, thou good [...]
Posted in blood and guts, friends, lessons, life, philosophy, relationships on March 27, 2008 | No Comments »
the person who currently knows me the most intimately (since she lived with me for a number of years and also has the title of closest friend) called me during her lunch break today.
so good to connect.
this is the first time, in oh, three to four years, that we have not talked at least once [...]
Posted in blood and guts, lessons, life, love, philosophy, relationships, theology on March 25, 2008 | 3 Comments »
it is utterly amazing to me how a simple cold can absolutely debilitate a grown adult and make them feel like they just want to crawl under the covers and never come out.
scripture talks about in our weaknesses, knowing God’s strength. heh. times of illness remind me of just how frail my human [...]
Posted in blood and guts, lessons, life, love, philosophy, relationships, theology on March 21, 2008 | No Comments »
a single yellow rose greets me tonight in full bloom against the backdrop of my espresso-stained pub table.
a funeral rose, given to me this past tuesday. a reminder that life doesn’t stop for birth or death.
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on the day i celebrated another birthday, i found myself driving through two hours of rain and rush hour [...]
Posted in blood and guts, friends, lessons, life, love, relationships on February 25, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Have I mentioned I love life?
I’m feeling very loved at the moment. Not that feeling loved means I’m called to live my life any differently than I do - I’m called to always love and to give of myself as Jesus would, whether or not I receive back, but friendships are just so amazing. [...]
Posted in blood and guts, education, friends, lessons, life, philosophy on February 25, 2008 | No Comments »
Sometimes I wonder if I’m using my gifts to the best of my ability.
Today I randomly stumbled across this note I took in class one time when I was an undergraduate.
My professor worked for the New York Times for seven years, among a long list of other accomplishments in the writing field, including being on [...]
Posted in blood and guts, lessons, life, love, philosophy, relationships, theology on February 17, 2008 | 2 Comments »
When I get into the zone of working, I forget almost all else. Becca said as she left out the door this morning, “Christy, don’t forget to eat lunch.”
“Don’t worry.”
Well, guess what I forgot. ;)
I’m in the middle of an 11 part series of talks on the Song of Songs (or Solomon) - detailing all [...]
Posted in education, lessons, life, philosophy, verse on January 28, 2008 | No Comments »
new
crazy
challenging
demanding
energizing
draining
chaotic
symphony
start
stop
learn all over again
churn out
quality
deadline
time stands still
creativity
formulaic
quality over quantity
content-driven
idealistic
practical reality
synthesize
here, there, everywhere
coffee
tea
a little bit
wing and a prayer
discipline
fingers to the keyboard
proof
edit
intuitively weave together
masterpiece or flop?
time will tell
and with a smile and a sigh
one more workday comes to a close.
Posted in blood and guts, friends, lessons, life, philosophy, relationships, theology on January 19, 2008 | No Comments »
I thought life would be much different than it is.
But it’s much better than I would have known it could be.
Yet, had I known where I’d be today and what I deemed was “good” or could have seen who I am, I would have squirmed or just flat out disbelieved.
What further paradigm shifts shall I [...]
Posted in friends, lessons, life, love, philosophy, relationships on January 19, 2008 | 2 Comments »
She called me up today; she leaves Tuesday; I’ll be having lunch with her tomorrow to say “goodbye.”
This move is unexpected but it’s time - she needs to go.
And I feel as if another era, another season is ending. Quite without my knowledge or permission. But such is life, isn’t it?
I remember frantically making my [...]
Posted in blood and guts, lessons, life, relationships, theology, verse on January 12, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Woke up, did housework, caught up with my roommate, had coffee, worked out, took a long bath/shower…and am now having leftover Thai from last night…and drinking loads of water. I asked for “mild” curry (with eggplant - YUM) and was given “hot” and the waitress kindly added more coconut milk to help temper the [...]
Posted in blood and guts, friends, lessons, life, love, philosophy, relationships on January 10, 2008 | No Comments »
The big milestones come in life when you least expect them and sometimes when you no longer “need” them. But isn’t that how it always is?
“Goodbye.”
And with that, he was gone.
–
I had a friend over the other night for tea and he remarked in passing how we enter new stages of life, significant stages, without [...]
Posted in blood and guts, lessons, life, relationships on January 7, 2008 | No Comments »
I’m dancing around my living room with a little sing song, joyful dance. It’s been a long workday and actually month or so of transition and changing gears…but after a three hour meeting with my boss today, and seeing a new schedule fall into place this week, I’m excitedly delighted with this upcoming season.
–
God [...]
Posted in blood and guts, lessons, life, philosophy, relationships, theology on January 3, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Something painful happened tonight that caused me to sob for a good thirty minutes - hardest cry I can remember in a long, long time. What it was over isn’t relevant to this post…but it made me wonder… I really don’t know how those who don’t know God/Jesus handle the pain of life. [...]
Posted in blood and guts, lessons, life, philosophy, theology on January 2, 2008 | No Comments »
my humanity is my leprosy
i need a remedy for my disease
wretched man i am
slave to sin
someone in my condition
needs the Great Physician
(- According to John)
The older I grow, the more I understand clearly, too clearly.
Happy back-to-work day after the New Year.
And oh yeah, Happy New Year.
It’s been a busy season!
Today is my first part-time week [...]
Posted in blood and guts, lessons, life, love, philosophy, relationships, theology on December 30, 2007 | 4 Comments »
Crazy how our strengths can become weaknesses and our weaknesses strength.
Posted in blood and guts, friends, lessons, life, love, music, philosophy, relationships, theology on December 26, 2007 | 2 Comments »
Since 1995, there has been one cd, one band, one album that I have gone to in my deepest pain, my greatest sorrow, my times of hardest stress…as well as when I have been most joyful, the most happy, or just frankly need to write that paper or article before my deadline. ;p
I don’t [...]
Posted in lessons, life, philosophy, quotes, theology on December 23, 2007 | No Comments »
A dear friend reminded me of the following:
Whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely. . .think on these things.
Phillippians 4:8
He’s my beloved professor from college who is in large part the reason I got my BA in philosophy.
I miss [...]
