you always know where to find me

So thankful for Watermark’s music. Christy, the wife of “Watermark”, is my father’s second cousin. I wish I had known her since she’s closer to my age, but we grew up in different states. Anyway, their music (it’s a husband and wife team) has just really ministered to me through some dark, [...]

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features

I haven’t had much time to devote to blogging or even fostering an online community the last year or so – maybe two ;), but I just added a “subscribe by email” function via WordPress, not simply feedburner (now google, lol) to this particular blog.  I love having blogs delivered to my inbox to read [...]

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honesty and true friendship

“Christy, you’re the kind of friend people avoid when they’re doing wrong or are doing something they shouldn’t because they know by your very nature and quality of friendship, you’ll call them out on it – even if you say nothing to them, they just…know… what they should be doing and don’t want to disappoint [...]

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step

So much going on in my head.
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It’s about 1 p.m.  My brother is still sleeping; he’s a 19 year old man, but still!  He’s been doing this for the last four days – and I need sleep and cannot sleep, lol.  I want him to wake up soon, though, so I don’t have to keep [...]

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radical

A friend’s mother called me “radical” in passing on a social networking site.
I wonder what she means – in the moment, which has long since passed, I was too busy with work to ask what she was talking about.  I’m pretty sure she means being a campus pastor, living on my own…but I don’t know [...]

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perspective

I’m highly emotional tonight.  Had a fabulous Thanksgiving day today with family…but it’s brought up a lot of emotions…mostly…just missing my three younger sisters and wishing they wanted to hang out more/had more time.  I’m close with my three younger brothers, but I feel distant with my sisters.  They got together to cook Thanksgiving dinner [...]

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patience

I love writing, and this blog is a place primarily for me to work out things in my life, to capture moments, feelings, fleeting thoughts, whatever I may fancy — as I’ve shared before, but it’s also for community and when I’m writing more voraciously, it works better.  But for now, time is limited, so [...]

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moment

I absolutely have a way too active mind. I love it and am thankful for it, but it can be exhausting some times!
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Listening to Ravi Zacharias this afternoon and cleaning my room. Excited for later tonight…studying John with one of my favorite Bible study teachers (and second father figures since Dad passed) [...]

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humor

I called a friend and her husband, who is also a close friend, picked up. She was in the shower, so we chatted and he said out of the blue, “So you’re still sick, Christy?”
“Yes.”
“Have you been to a doctor?”
“No…not officially.”
“Dam-it, Christy! You have insurance, don’t you? Aren’t we paying for it? [...]

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thankfulness

Watching the big college football rivalry this afternoon with my brother but off soon to a birthday part for two close friends where I’ll watch the second half with them – excited. Just glad for a day off and a day full of relaxation, fun, laughter, close friends. Silliness and depth, good food, [...]

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changes

I’m having an amazing month. On a whole lot of levels. Professionally. Personally. Spiritually.
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I met with a regional director for the organization I work with Thursday night; she came into town to speak to my students, and we had a meeting afterwards; I took her to my favorite Arabic restaurant and [...]

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social networking…a fan? ;)

My friend Molly had this dream about me:
“I was at a restaurant and saw you come in to meet a friend for a lunch date. I then noticed that you put a baby carrier on the table. So of course, shocked and confused, I go over to find out what’s going on. You proceed [...]

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little did i know

Little did I know
That I almost let you go
Until I caught a glimpse of life
without you
Little did I know
How deep these roots had grown
Until I felt the earth quake here
without you
And this ache is gonna break me love
Until you come back home
Right or wrong
There is no home without you
And these eyes are never gonna dry
I [...]

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responsibilty

Responsibility.
Sometimes I just don’t want to face it.
I don’t want to make life-changing decisions.  Because then I’m responsible for them.  And I have to own them.  I cannot cast responsibility off to someone else.
And so I freeze. Because the task seems so daunting.
Because I don’t want to screw up.
Because I don’t want to be the [...]

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coffee-less lass

Starting week four without coffee.  From three year barista to this…who would have thought?
I no longer have mid-day crashes – at all.  It’s wonderful.  My energy level is so much higher.  It’s crazy.
And I don’t crave it.  Yet.
Phil says just wait and enjoy it while I can – that I’ll go back.  Perhaps, but right [...]

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two worlds…

I randomly stumbled upon the blog of someone who is two years older than I am, with three children, living the life my parents lived…down to raising the very same breed of chickens we used to raise.  It was surreal to read of a life I only hazily remember through the fog of time and [...]

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work.seasons.life

My job is one I adore; it is taxing, it is demanding and it is fabulous.  When I think of how much I’ve grown the past two years on staff, all that I’ve been exposed to, the ways I’ve been developed and had a chance to grow professionally and personally…it makes me sad to ever [...]

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men

S. called this afternoon.  “Hi, I just miss you.”
I love uncomplicated male friendships.
Sometimes, in some of the crowds I run with, everything is so “sexed” because all the Christians are virgins that it just convolutes male/female friendships.  So it’s just so nice when that added layer of confusion or complication is just not there and [...]

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still processing…

I’m twenty-seven, not too old, not too young…but old enough to have experienced some life.
I think about D.  And the friendship we used to have.  The ways in which I am trying to deal with a friend betraying the friendship and walking away for the sake of a girl.  I never foresaw experiencing this kind [...]

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growing in self-awareness

Living with my brother has been an adventure; mostly because I have learned so much about myself through learning about him.  Things that I thought were “Christy” traits I am realizing are more “family” traits…and his commentary about my life is quite insightful.  We come from the same stock, the same parents, though I had [...]

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reality

I’m sitting in a Catholic retreat center…in the room I normally take when I come here once a month.  The iconoclastic nature of Catholic places…took me a while to get used to, being Protestant born and raised.   There is a red tree outside my room…I’m in the middle of a wooded lot…so the Fall colors [...]

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wild world

“Oh baby, baby, it’s a wild world…it’s hard to get by just upon a smile…” – Cat Stevens

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falling

Falling for you, I keep falling for you…
-Shaded Red

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life

Pulling my life back together today.  Putting things back in order, preparing for a crazy work week.  It was to be a busy week as it was – I have a speaking engagement.  Still have to write the talk.  Plus catch up from last week.  Fun times. ;p
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Trying not to be overwhelmed.  My brother is [...]

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welcome to delaware

new places, new times, old promise.
Well it’s bitter cold December,
and the leaves have fallen true
And I do believe I’m still in love with You
Yeah, my scenery keeps changing
and sometimes it’s hard to view
But You’ve let me see so much since I’ve known You
But I headed to where it seemed like nowhere
You told me You’d come
You [...]

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taking time out, under duress…and the perspective it brings

I cannot remember the last time I’ve had the real flu…the knock out, no holds barred 7 – 10 day flu.
It visited me Sunday morning, while I was away on a weekend jaunt to the State’s capital; a bunch of friends decided to go to Oktoberfest; we stayed over at a bed and breakfast and [...]

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satisfaction

A week ago, I decided to work on becoming more healthy and have my decision to get serious about getting back into shape this Fall include being more intentional about what I eat as well.  So I started a week ago.
Tonight, while sitting in the midst of the student union, waiting for a student, a [...]

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being understood

“That’s living in community, right?”
A friend asked that…
I live in community; I didn’t exactly intend to.  Logically I knew I would be but I didn’t…think it through to realize that is what I was choosing to do.  My landlords are renting to me at basically half price; they have a darling duplex from the 1920’s [...]

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just dance

Lady Gaga just came on; I didn’t even know she existed until a few months ago; I manage to stay in various caves quite readily. ;)  Anyway, the music reminds me of a dance party with Lauren a few weeks ago.  I was determined to not listen to the music…but as friends love her, I [...]

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different facets

I’m learning a lot about myself since living with my brother; I’m eight years older.  We’re both the eldest of our respective genders.  This is the first time we’ve lived together since we’re adults.  I left home about five years ago and before that, for about four years, wasn’t around much because of college.
Needless to [...]

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