healing

Completely healed.
This particular album and artist was one of my favorites, but it was tied to a man (my boyfriend at the time) who broke my heart; of course, I let him. Learned a lot in the years since…but…I used to be able to not listen to this music without deep sorrow even though [...]

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freedom

Much to write; very little time at the moment.  Lots swirling around in the resesses of my mind.  :)
Was at an amazing worship concert last night – three bands that have been favorites of mine throughout the years performed together at an outdoor concert event to raise support for Habitat for Humanity.  (Jars of Clay, [...]

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question

What do you do to feel alive?

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doxology

I’m working tonight and just realized that for the last forty-five minutes I’ve been humming and/or singing the Doxology.
Fascinating. Good thing I’m working out of my home office. ;)
My concentration/focus is impeccable. ;p

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suffering

Why do we always seem to want to run from suffering?
–
It seems pain and suffering produce a lot of the best music, writing and art in this world.
A bit unrelated but perhaps not.
Where would we be without pain and suffering to be the inspiration? And where would joy, euphoria and happiness [...]

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i believe

Plumb’s “Concrete” …brings me back to my highschool years.
For some reason, the rawness of the song is soothing in a strange fashion tonight.
I cannot escape tonight…past memories. Seven years ago tomorrow. I have been strangely depressed all day; aware of tomorrow’s anniversary, I blithely attribute this deep, pervasive pain and sadness to…something [...]

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a sweet compliment

One of my girlfriends, whom I adore, tends to write songs about me and my love life (or lack thereof, depending upon when she’s writing ;)…or uses my life in general as a muse…she’s amazing…I’ll lay on the couch, she’ll sit down at my piano, and create something – for whatever mood I’m in (or [...]

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take my world apart

[Jars of Clay's "Worlds Apart"]
I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all ends up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
to give and die
To turn away and not [...]

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for you, for me

[Over the Rhine's "All I Need Is Everything"]

Slow down. Hold still.
It’s not as if it’s a matter of will.
Someone’s circling. Someone’s moving
a little lower than the angels.
And it’s got nothing to do with me.
The wind blows through the trees,
but if I look for it, it won’t come.
I tense up. My mind [...]

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the beat

how does one live without music?
it is the beat of my heart.
when i don’t have a voice…it provides.
when i lose my beat…i can just let it move for me.
pulsating, rhythmic.
it speaks when i cannot.
it gives voice to the utterances of my heart.
it carries me when i can no longer walk.
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thankful for friends.
you know who you [...]

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want

I want you to be my love
I want you to be my love
Neath the moon and stars above
I want you to be my love
I want you to know me now
I want you to know me now
Make a promise; make a vow
I know you want me now
Like I want you
Like I want you
I want you to [...]

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frail

♫ the human spirit is eternal and frail;
can we accept its bounds?
it’s frightening to offer oneself without walls;
how can we love unless we tear walls down?
(jan krist)

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shine

At the end of the day, who will love her if she does not shine?
["Shine" (Jan Krist)]
She buries the problems
but they grow and bloom again
No one need see them
She will deftly pretend
Playing her high cards
Best foot forward every time
For who will love her
if she does not shine?
Hopelessness dogs her
but she will not give in
She [...]

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what do i know?

What do I really know? I know that mercy will find you.
The question is, will you accept it?
–
“Song of Absolutes” (Jan Krist)
They’re absolutely right
You’re absolutely wrong
And absolutely all their friends
will play along
And they may eat crow
’til the cows come home
And you can absolutely bet
that they won’t eat that crow alone
But what do I know
What [...]

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famous

“Famous Last Words” by Jars of Clay
You say you heard every word, but I watched you turn away
Your eyes grew colder than winter
“Love is so intrusive,” I thought I heard you say
And laugh so unconvincingly
Famous last words, “I’m not ready yet“
“I won’t be gone a minute”
Narrow is the road and too high a price to [...]

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peace on earth

Heaven on Earth, we need it now
I’m sick of all of this hanging around
Sick of sorrow, sick of the pain
I’m sick of hearing again and again
That there’s gonna be peace on Earth
Where I grew up there weren’t many trees
Where there was we’d tear them down
And use them on our enemies
They say that what [...]

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getting distracted from work

The risk of listening to music as you work is distraction.
Ever had a song come on and all your senses are demanded by it? And you lose yourself in it?
Uh huh.
Stevie Wonder’s “Pastime Paradise” = orgasmic.

They’ve been spending most their lives
Living in a pastime paradise
They’ve been spending most their lives
Living [...]

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testify

a song from my distant, distant past…that made me laugh when i heard it tonight randomly come on because of the genre/style…but…i love the sentiment it conveys, for it’s reflective of my heart, in part. =)
[Avalon's "Testify to Love"]
All the colors of the rainbow
All of voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
That reaches [...]

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crash like the waves

I wish I could crash like the waves in effort to praise you…
The cry of my heart tonight.
Why oh why He chooses to die for us, to give up his life, to sacrifice himself, I will never fully understand but can only in response cry in humulity and thankfulness and praise him for who he is.
Thank [...]

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meet me here

Well it’s bitter cold December,
and the leaves have fallen, true
And I do believe I’m still in love with You
Yeah, my scenery keeps changing
and sometimes it’s hard to view
But You’ve let me see so much since I’ve known You
But I headed to where it seemed like nowhere
You told me You’d come
You told me You’d meet me [...]

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favorites

U2 has been one of my favorite bands for years…but tonight I’m falling in love with them all over again – almost as if for the first time – I never, ever tire of them and their lyrics, known by heart, still catch me by surprise, make me gasp with pleasure, surprise, or delight and [...]

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in a little while

[U2's "In A Little While"]
In a little while
Surely you’ll be mine
In a little while…I’ll be there
In a little while
This hurt will hurt no more
I’ll be home, love
When the night takes a deep breath
And the daylight has no air
If I crawl, if I come crawling home
Will you be there?
In a little while
I won’t be blown by [...]

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so tell me

Tell me all your thoughts on God…
(Dishwalla’s “Counting Blue Cars”)

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melt the snow

I’m currently surrounded by a whole lot of snow and this is playing on my stereo. How apropos.
;)
North Pole Man (Over the Rhine)
(Words and Music: Bergquist/Detweiler)
North Pole man
Come in from the cold
North Pole man
It’s gettin’ old
Cold hands cold feet
Darn snow darn sleet
It takes good friction
To make good heat
North Pole man
Come out of the storm
North [...]

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love

I want you to be my love…
This is the song that is currently on repeat; I never, ever tire of it…so richly delicious, simple and profound. Intimately tender and revealing…
[Over the Rhine's "I Want You To Be My Love"]

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brokenness

Since 1995, there has been one cd, one band, one album that I have gone to in my deepest pain, my greatest sorrow, my times of hardest stress…as well as when I have been most joyful, the most happy, or just frankly need to write that paper or article before my deadline. ;p
I don’t [...]

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entertaining thoughts

Entertaining Thoughts (by Over the Rhine)
I’ve been entertaining thoughts
Of what I wanna say to you
I’ve been entertaining thoughts
Of what I’m gonna do
I’ve been saving what I got
And wondering who to give it to
I’ve been entertaining thoughts all over you
The way this works is so mysterious
If it gets much worse it’s called delirious
If I were mad [...]

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don’t wait for tom

Did I mention I’m in love with Over the Rhine??  Today has been a sublime Over the Rhine lazy Sunday.  Sigh.
Absolutely in love with for “Don’t Wait For Tom.” If you want to know what music has captivated me and made me dance around my living room all day, off and on, it’s their entire [...]

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day in bed

Over the Rhine’s “Let’s Spend The Day In Bed”
(You can go here and scroll down and listen to a free download of the song – I highly recommend it. ;)
Let’s spend the day in bed
Yeah that’s what I said
Let’s lie down draw the shades
Ditch the plans we made
Rest your lovely bones
And just stay home
Turn [...]

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all i need is everything

I was searching to post another Over the Rhine song (which I’ll do in a moment) but stumbled across this one, which is a favorite of mine…
“All I Need Is Everything.”
Slow down. Hold still.
It’s not as if it’s a matter of will.
Someone’s circling. Someone’s moving
a little lower than the angels.
And it’s got nothing to do [...]

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