quote

Chewing on this. We objected to morality because it interfered with our sexual freedom. Aldous Huxley, Ends and Means

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raw

in a smashing pumpkins’ mood…one of their songs just came on…aptly reflects my demeanor. to say i’m having a rough time would be an understatement. to say God is always faithful is a reality. – sometimes i just need someone to hold me. sometimes i wish God had physical arms. but taking one day at [...]

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God’s love in human form

I’ve spent the last half hour alternating between quietly crying and sobbing, reading this story. What do I say to the author but acknowledgment of the grief I feel for him and his family and the promise to pray for them as the Holy Spirit brings them to mind? His story stirs up so many [...]

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freedom

Much to write; very little time at the moment.  Lots swirling around in the resesses of my mind.  :) Was at an amazing worship concert last night – three bands that have been favorites of mine throughout the years performed together at an outdoor concert event to raise support for Habitat for Humanity.  (Jars of [...]

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the character of God

Thinking about depending upon the character of God in light of some pretty significant disappointments this past month, in my personal life and the lives of others I hold dear — His character which is good, loving, just, compassionate and merciful. Randomly, Pedro came on and the refrain “If I look up and the sky’s [...]

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interpreting truth

To give truth to him who loves it not is but to give him more plentiful material for misinterpretation. – George MacDonald

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faith

“With faith like a child…” (Jars of Clay) What does it mean to have “faith like a child”?  Practically for those of us familiar with the theological terminology or intimations surrounding the phrase…what does it mean when we put flesh and blood on the concept?

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grace, revisted

Thanks to Laura for another reminder. :) “And the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair.” – Relient K

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question

What do you do to feel alive?

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on pleasing others

I like pleasing people. I like pleasing people a lot. I used to think I had overcome this trait, which, in general, I believe to be detrimental to health and vitality…but…I’ve come to realize that deep down at my core, I still struggle with the desire to be liked, to be affirmed, to be approved. [...]

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too easily pleased

Laura reminded me of one of my favorite quotes…(thanks, Laura!) :) We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of [...]

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quick rambling on infuriating grace

You know what?  I had an epiphany this past week. Grace is infuriating.  I think I actually saw those two words coupled somewhere, but it hit me in a way it hasn’t before. I think I have spent so much time with Muslim and atheist friends who have pressed me over the years on how [...]

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waiting

A random poem I found while cleaning out some paperwork from my life…I don’t entirely agree with the underlying theology espoused here, but overall, I think it has some gems. No idea who wrote it or even where or how I have it my possession. :) But thought I’d share. “In God’s Time” Everyone longs [...]

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experience

Experience: that most brutal of teachers. But you learn, my God, do you learn. – C.S. Lewis

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compassion in a broken world

And you want to know the insidious thing about my own heart? I received the prayer request to a group email list-serve that I administer, and was set to approve it for mass distribution and was numb and thought to myself “I’ll pray for this student and her family” until I processed this was a [...]

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doxology

I’m working tonight and just realized that for the last forty-five minutes I’ve been humming and/or singing the Doxology. Fascinating. Good thing I’m working out of my home office. ;) My concentration/focus is impeccable. ;p

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ramblings on language and the heart

life is so strange, sometimes. i’m really trying to wrap my mind around it. and i’m just plain hungry for some c.s. lewis. i haven’t taken any proper time with his writings lately and i’m feeling a drought. i made a crustless pumpkin pie tonight. i’ve been saying i’d make one since february…heh. finally made [...]

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;)

itching to dance… “let’s go ouuuuuuuuuuu-t tonight!” (rent) excited about a lot of things. nervous, a bit…well…”scared” isn’t the word…a bit apprehensive about how everything shall work…time shall tell…preparing to say a lot of “goodbyes”…excited about the next steps…hungry for life. my mother was right…she told me that because i had given so much of [...]

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on sin

A letter. [Take it or leave it. Thoughts free-flow...] I Turn Everything Over (Switchfoot) Monday found me on my knees again Breathing You in To blur the lines that mark where I begin And where You end No use in trying to pretend Come take me again ‘Cause rumor has it I’m not who I’ve [...]

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love

want you to know that i still love you india arie I think love never ends…it morphs, changes, but most often, never truly ends…our ways of dealing with it force us to compartmentalize, ignore, or bury it when it must change nature…maybe we use such absolutist terms to help us deal with the changes and [...]

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the ugliness of pride

I have to write a quick biographical sketch for something work-related…and it’s up to my discretion…and as I was describing my degree within the sketch, I automatically included that I graduated from the University of Michigan with high distinction. Ugh. In reworking the piece, I removed that bit…but why does pride run so deep? Professed [...]

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passion

Writing calls my heart. Work responsibilities demand my attention. And such is life. What passion calls you? In what do you consistently and thoroughly get lost? What breathes life into you, sustains you, feeds your soul? Expands your mind, nourishes your body? What are you passionate about?

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being a woman

i should be leaving for an errand, but quickly… i love days that i feel especially beautiful. because in today’s society, that’s saying something… and i think it brings glory to God to be comfortable with who he has made you to be… i love being a woman. and the power we have as women [...]

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question

I’m rebelling against the fact that I have to go in to work today…and am sitting here reading blogs this morning, drinking coffee, way past the time I should have stepped into the shower. But now I have to snap back to the reality that I’m behind schedule and dash around. ;) – In light [...]

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suffering

Why do we always seem to want to run from suffering? – It seems pain and suffering produce a lot of the best music, writing and art in this world. A bit unrelated but perhaps not. Where would we be without pain and suffering to be the inspiration? And where would joy, euphoria and happiness [...]

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paradigm shifts

[Feeling rather…blah about having articulated my thoughts well on this since reading it over, but since I published it, I will leave it for now. Hopefully it makes some sense or resonates on some level…;p ] What paradigm shifts have you experienced that affect your life? I was mulling over this question this past weekend. [...]

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storms

A bad storm just rolled in unexpectedly…last week, storms made over 200,000 plus people lose power; I was not one of them, for more than a few minutes, thankfully. The rain is torrentially down pouring right now, though. I absolutely love storms when I have a sense of security – watching them from inside the [...]

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thought-provoking

The place God calls you to is the place where your deep gladness and the world’s deep hunger meet. – Frederick Buechner

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taking hold of the grace that’s freely given

I’ve had a few very emotionally demanding days…with added things to try my patience sprinkled here or there. I almost set my computer on fire. I had a candle accident. On the same day. Not related. I had a nail in my tire, came back to the first day at the office to much work [...]

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paradigm shift

Amazing grace. It amazes me how a simple paradigm shift happens, and all of a sudden, you understand a word and a whole system of theology much differently – or perhaps more deeply. I feel as if the last few months, I have been experiencing grace on a whole new level. Grace. A word that [...]

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