take my world apart

[Jars of Clay's "Worlds Apart"]
I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all ends up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
to give and die
To turn away and not [...]

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kiss the brand new day

i just want to fly
put your arms around me, baby
(sugar ray)
Hello, world.
It’s a beautiful day. :)
This morning, was reading about Jesus’ first miracle. Turning water into wine, not only wine but the best wine.
My friend, Jonolan, posted this bit…it gets into a little about our ideas of God…who He is, what He looks like…and [...]

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for you, for me

[Over the Rhine's "All I Need Is Everything"]

Slow down. Hold still.
It’s not as if it’s a matter of will.
Someone’s circling. Someone’s moving
a little lower than the angels.
And it’s got nothing to do with me.
The wind blows through the trees,
but if I look for it, it won’t come.
I tense up. My mind goes numb.
There’s nothing harder [...]

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stirring

I’m restless, stirring, ready for more.
Will I ever be satiated?
Is that even the point?
I’ve written thoughts on this stirring before…
It disturbs me to think of always wanting more…
Sweet simplicity.
How to obtain it…
Or is that the point.
It isn’t attainable.
And God is reminding me, reminding us, reminding humanity that only He can satiate us.
And we won’t [...]

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benediction

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13

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frail

♫ the human spirit is eternal and frail;
can we accept its bounds?
it’s frightening to offer oneself without walls;
how can we love unless we tear walls down?
(jan krist)

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authority

Thanks to my beautiful and lovely roommate, Becca, for introducing me to the below quote.
The Authority of Compassion
Mostly we think of people with great authority as higher up, far away, hard to reach. But spiritual authority comes from compassion and emerges from deep inner solidarity with those who are “subject” to authority. [...]

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thankful

Thankful for friends.
I had a bit of a mini melt-down last night over a small failure professionally…and one friend, in asking me about what was going on, said the following:
You’re smart, intelligent and talented. But even girls like you can’t get it right 100% of the time. By product of being human. [...]

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mercy and grace

Mercy: not getting something you deserve
Grace: getting something you don’t deserve
Mercy and grace are two of the reasons why I love Jesus beyond description. He has shown me abundant love in giving me both. They don’t mean much as gifts, though, unless you know you need them. I wonder how many people [...]

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what do i know?

What do I really know? I know that mercy will find you.
The question is, will you accept it?
–
“Song of Absolutes” (Jan Krist)
They’re absolutely right
You’re absolutely wrong
And absolutely all their friends
will play along
And they may eat crow
’til the cows come home
And you can absolutely bet
that they won’t eat that crow alone
But what do I know
What [...]

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suffering

The real problem is not why some pious, humble, believing people suffer, but why some do not. - C.S. Lewis

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idealism

I think I actually posted this quote on this blog or another of mine long ago, but I found it again today via here, at a friend’s blog (particularly about his views of relationships and marriage) and fell in love with it again that I thought I’d post it.
“The Christian ideal has not been tried [...]

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ramblings after a long day

la de da da.
I feel a bit off this week. Not quite sure what it is…it’s been a good week thus far. I think I’m just tired. I’ve been going nonstop, even through all my lunch breaks, for four solid days.
Tonight is my first true breather.
Sigh… :)
It’s nice to be home and [...]

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laying down your life

my crazy mind, desiring to be rid of this illness, just thought of a alternate reality in which people could offer to go through illnesses for other people, for a price, of course. (i hate being sick! ;) and then…i thought, “who in their right mind would go through sickness as a way [...]

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the Word

I unabashedly stole this from The Razzler. (Thank you!)
After spending some extra time in the Word today from my sickbed, I could not say it better.
His Word shall live forever
The Word is a sword that pierces the heart
The Truth is the light that cuts through the dark of this world
Nations shall rise and
Nations shall [...]

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desire

i want to learn the art of simplicity.
i want to learn what it means to effectively carry a heavy load but never be burdened.
to have peace in the midst of the busyness of life.
to be centered, fully.
and consistently.
to run the race of life well.
and to end it well.
i want to hear “well done, thou good [...]

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achoo

it is utterly amazing to me how a simple cold can absolutely debilitate a grown adult and make them feel like they just want to crawl under the covers and never come out.
scripture talks about in our weaknesses, knowing God’s strength. heh. times of illness remind me of just how frail my human [...]

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famous

“Famous Last Words” by Jars of Clay
You say you heard every word, but I watched you turn away
Your eyes grew colder than winter
“Love is so intrusive,” I thought I heard you say
And laugh so unconvincingly
Famous last words, “I’m not ready yet“
“I won’t be gone a minute”
Narrow is the road and too high a price to [...]

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joy comes in the morn

This world can be cruel. Hard. Disappointing. And yet still hopeful. Hopeful only because Jesus is Lord and rose from the grave, giving us the assurance of eternity.
Last year, a young woman sat on a couch and sobbed as one relationship came to an end, not knowing six months later, it’d be de javu all [...]

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out of darkness

a single yellow rose greets me tonight in full bloom against the backdrop of my espresso-stained pub table.
a funeral rose, given to me this past tuesday. a reminder that life doesn’t stop for birth or death.
–
on the day i celebrated another birthday, i found myself driving through two hours of rain and rush hour [...]

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quote

The man who’s knocking on the door of a brothel is looking for God.
- George MacDonald

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peace on earth

Heaven on Earth, we need it now
I’m sick of all of this hanging around
Sick of sorrow, sick of the pain
I’m sick of hearing again and again
That there’s gonna be peace on Earth
Where I grew up there weren’t many trees
Where there was we’d tear them down
And use them on our enemies
They say that what [...]

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numbed anger

This world is a sick, sick, sick place.
Lord, have mercy.  
Sometimes I wonder how much longer any of us can go on in the midst of the evil we face, personally and corporately - having to watch friends and loved ones go through hell.
I know I should be remembering the hope that I have as [...]

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two becoming one

When does the “joining of two becoming one flesh” happen? At what point in a relationship? (Speaking of course within the Biblical context of “and the man shall leave his parents and cleave until his wife and the two shall become one flesh.”) Is it the minute you say “I do”? (And [...]

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testify

a song from my distant, distant past…that made me laugh when i heard it tonight randomly come on because of the genre/style…but…i love the sentiment it conveys, for it’s reflective of my heart, in part. =)
[Avalon's "Testify to Love"]
All the colors of the rainbow
All of voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
That reaches [...]

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hunger on both counts ;)

When I get into the zone of working, I forget almost all else.  Becca said as she left out the door this morning, “Christy, don’t forget to eat lunch.”
“Don’t worry.”
Well, guess what I forgot.  ;)
I’m in the middle of an 11 part series of talks on the Song of Songs (or Solomon) - detailing all [...]

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baptize me

During my time with God today…when I was prayer journaling, Jaci’s song (below) came to mind and found itself being poured out on the pages of my journal, mixed with my prayers…
It’s amazing how a song from my teen years…which had no relevance then…except being a song I liked to sing to, now comes to [...]

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worlds apart

I couldn’t have said it better…(Jars of Clay’s “Worlds Apart”)
–
I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all ends up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but [...]

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crash like the waves

I wish I could crash like the waves in effort to praise you…
The cry of my heart tonight.
Why oh why He chooses to die for us, to give up his life, to sacrifice himself, I will never fully understand but can only in response cry in humulity and thankfulness and praise him for who he is.
Thank [...]

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ramblings

Smile like you mean it (The Killers)
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My heart is full today.  My house is clean.  The candles are lit, the kettle is ready to be put on, the dessert is made, and I am freshly showered and awaiting my friend for an afternoon visit.  And then it’s off to a work meeting…and then a friend’s [...]

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